this is it..

(read : well i don't this often. in fact, i don't this this at all. so, it's an honour for you to be the first one i'm gonna write about in the blog. i'm definitely gonna write bout other important people in my life too when the time comes :)

Well, in case you guys didn't know.. he is one of the most important people in my life. We've been through alot together. Good times.. bad times.. we always have each other.To be honest, i owe him alot. i can't even explain how much i owe him. no, not money. i owe him love,i owe him time, i owe him care and oh, i owe him a dinner. So i think he deserves a post from me. In this post, i'm gonna write about us.. about our relationship ( even our best buddies were kinda blur what happen between us. everybody has been asking about us. i didn't really explain to them. so now..after a year..i decide to write about it in public.)

Our break up was a surprise for others. Some of our friends thought we were just playing around. Well, i can't blame them coz at that time when we told them about our break up, me and izzat were happily teaming up together in a badminton game. We told the others during the game. Like in the middle of the game. So yeah i guess you guys can picture the situation. Alot of people has been asking why.. they didn't believe it coz.. me and izzat... we never really have a problem together. we were like bestfriends..in love. we did alot of things together..from wallclimbing to cycling... from badminton to baseball... from picnic to visiting the zoo... from lepak-ing to a formal dinner. we were together. and when we broke up, i didn't actually clarify why. i always thought that this is our relationship, why bother to tell others. but now to think again, i think what i did isn't really fair for izzat.

I believe when a relationship has a problem, it's a two way thing. both of us is responsible for it. My problem is.. i tend to forget very fast. i remember Dr. M once said, 'melayu mudah lupa '. but i think he is wrong. coz i think 'manusia mudah lupa'. it's a human nature. we tend to forget things quickly especially when there's something else more interesting came along. I'm sorry izzat. Everytime when we fought, all i remember is all the bad times we had together, how you didn't care for me when i needed you, how you didn't appreciate our relationship when we were together. I totally forgot how you comforted me when my mum was sick, how you hold my hands and told me everything is going to be alright when the world fell on me, how were you there when i needed you the most,how were you being you. I am sorry. Our relationship thought me alot of things including how we didn't know what we have til it's gone.

I consider myself very lucky now. I'm lucky to still have you as my friend. still have you in my life. I know i hurt you too much..too deep but yet, you're too good and too nice to forgive me and move on. I realize that things are different between us now but i hope our friendship will stay the same.My mum once said, " love comes and goes but friendship is forever ". and i definitely hope ours is forever. Thank you Izzat. You can never be replaced. I believe that is how everybody see you too. You're a good friend, great listener and the best teacher we have ever known. :)

Last but not least..

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY IZZAT!!!!! AND YOU'RE LEGALLY LAHANATS NOW. heehehehe. God bless and may all your wish and dreams come true.

truly,

TohRongRong

it starts again

hey2..thank u toh for bringing this blog back..ur effort is deeply appreciated :) thank you again :D concerning ur blog..finally!!..hehe..now i understand why :p concerning what happened a few days ago..i dun think i have to explain because most of u know what happen and i hope most of u understand ;) thank you for those who are willing to listen ;) now i want to write something that i find very meaningful..that is friendship :p yeah2 im being sentimental..fuck that..like u guys dun know me any better :p anyway i felt really appreciated when a portion of you really knows me well and for i thank you..ur friendship means everything to me..thats why i always spend the weekends at home..to find u guys ;) except when finals are around the corner like NOW!!..gosh just 3 weeks away and im still not sure whether im prepared or not..i had to dropped one subject because i dun think im confident enough to answer it in the finals..now i have 3 subjects hopefully i can do much better and ur prayers for my success is highly appreciated..hehe :p getting back to friendship..my definition about it..its based on trust and years of years of being together..think about it..who is the better person to help u in rough times..im sure not many will show up but a few will..now thats ur fren..but when ur torn between 2 frens..how ur gonna make it work?..thats wut stressed me out the most..a person that u learned to love with 8 years of friendship and for some, thats considered long..with 8 years of that u know that person inside out..what they are like..heh..but with 8 years with no understanding from one another..i find it a waste..people come and go..i have experience that..it hurts..but ull get over it..and we are humans..and humans sometime makes the stupidest mistakes..and i quote from forrest gump..'stupid is as stupid does' love that movie..brought tears to my eyes..got a problem wit that?..hahaha..fuck you :p hehehe..anyway if its meant to be then its meant to be..ill learn to accept it..in time..anyhow..see yaa..im gonna continue with my studying :D